I slipped !!!!

Hubby is off work for a while so we decided to do a healthy family thing and go to the beach for a walk and a swim, (not a normal thing for me )
I decided that instead of taking lunch and a midday snack we could have fish and chips (just a grilled fish for me) Hahahahaha!!!! thats what I thought......

We get to the beach and son goes to play in water park while we walk around and keep an eye on him.Later I suggest we walk the 1.5kg to the  fish shop and eat there and walk back (hoorah for me ...so sensible)

We get to the fish shop and I do indeed order grilled barra (no chips) meals for son and hubbie. I really should have stopped there and walked away, but. out of the corner of my eye I spied them HOME MADE FISH CAKES ... hmm just one wouldn't hurt ...so I ordered one (to share of course)

Meal arrived and I attempted to share, but, wudduya know hubby didn't like it. So (of course) don't want to waste food, so I stuffed it down with tartare sauce. Thats okay thinks I, we are walking back. Not too bad I hear you say ... wait there's more. Walking back we came across an ice cream van ( I really don't like ice cream)"How about we share a sundae' say I "Sure" says hubby. So i grab a sundae "just one scoop" I say , feeling chuffed with myself. then I go order crushed nuts, caramel topping and a flake.....
(ARE YOU MAD WOMAN)
I take it back to the waterpark and eat all the caramel topping and 2 small spoons of icecream and then give it to hubby. He of course didn't want it and gave it back to me. I looked at it, then at the slim, healthy mother running with her child, and threw it in the bin...Hoorah for me!!  (But wait there's more) We left for home a couple of hours later and I had decided to have just the small portion of egg curry (calorie approved and counted) with a small roti bread also calorie counted. Hubby (love this man) decided that he was having a large rib steak, homemade onion gravy and onion pull apart bread. Great!! until everything was on the table and I looked at the bread...resistance was futile... So YES! dear reader I indulged.... Off the wagon for the day ...
A tale of woe? Maybe... But at the beginning of this weight loss journey (i hate the use of that word now its been so Americanised) I would have thrown the past 20 weeks away and decided that it was all a waste of time. Now? I just think that today I will keep to the meal plan and I will continue to lose weight. There are going to be speed bumps along the road for me ( loads of them, I'm sure) but I can feel a change inside ( I cant always feel the external) Internally I know my mindset is shifting. I am being more kind to myself and much more realistic.. I just hope this continues, I'm sure it will.
Until next time cyberworld