I started so well with the last one and fizzled after 2. Just been reading some of the 12WBT blogs and felt inspired to add to my post!! Hahaha, do you think that I could remember my password or gmail account...nah uh!! back to the drawing board and 20 minutes and much frustration later I decided to give up and start again.......
So here I am. 2nd round of 12WBT and the 1st round although it started on a high ended in a heap... even though I managed to shift 17kgs my last 2 weeks were terrible. motivation was shot and a few bad habits crept back in...(well no exactly crept more like leapt on me like a huge wet lump of jellyfish) ...remember now (I'm the one who love brackets :) )
I gave myself a talking to and started on round 4 2012 ; began with a squeak, but am now moving quickly towards a decent weight loss for this round.
The round so far:wk 1: diabolical
wk 2: terrible (as you see getting better)
wk 3: help!!!!!!!!!!
wk 4: Okay
wk 5: Forget it, its Christmas
wk 6: OMG I lost weight even though it was Christmas and the New Year!!
Week 7: Sitting on 8kg lost since start.
That's should make me feel great... (shouldn't it?) but I find myself looking at all of these other 12WBT heros and heroines who have shed 20+ kilos and I can't see how my body has changed.
Now I know I need to start to take a long hard look at my inner self (ewww, tried that before and didn't like it) and get over this issue of body dismorphia that seems to have perched itself on my shoulder and be nagging in my ear.
There are a lot of things that I need to change about myself for this year. Attitude is on top of the list. Starting up my blog again is my first step in making myself accountable.
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